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[abidingtime]

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[abidingtime]

Lotsa times. They always pull me out though, so why should I care?

[fregit]

That's a fuckton to gamble on when the fuckwads don't care two shits about you.

Or they won't if you keep disappointing the paying clients. And then they stop pulling.

[abidingtime]

I don't really care one way or the other.

[fregit]

Holy shit, newbie.

Whatever beef you got with them? It never gets resolved if you die, you know.

[abidingtime]

Then I'll die, and it'll mean nothing. And I'll die over and over again, won't I? And it'll always mean nothing. But it's no better if I live.

There's nothing I can do. But I can do this. I can not play their game.

[fregit]

Maybe next time you're not so smart.

Maybe next time, you don't even remember who you are.

Pretty winning situation you got going for yourself.

[abidingtime]

I've remembered myself so far. It's been years.

Who asked you, anyway? It's my business if I want to waste myself.

[fregit]

Because I go into the fucking rings too.

And I don't like wailing on people who don't hit back. And I don't want to risk getting offed cause I won't wail on you.

So you're fucking over people like me too.

[abidingtime]

Oh my protest is fucking you over.

Deal with it. You've done worse, I'm sure.

[fregit]

Oh you've been here a few years and suddenly you got the market cornered on whining like a little bitch.

We're all fucked in here. Get used to it.

No one ever wins and throwing your life away does shit.

[abidingtime]

You said it yourself, we're all fucked. So who the fuck are you to give me shit over not caring if I die?

Leave me the fuck alone.

[fregit]

Because I'm the one usually in the death matches.

And you're heading straight for me at this rate.

[abidingtime]

So just kill me.

It won't be pleasant, and I'm sorry for that.

But if that's how it happens, that's how it happens.

[fregit]

Jesus. You're too pathetic to kill.

[abidingtime]

Fine. Then don't kill me. We'll just sit there. Stare at each other. Want to take bets on who they kill afterwards? Not been me so far.

[fregit]

FUCK.

I don't want to fucking beat the shit out of a fucking lump. That's not a fight that's just fucking murder.

[abidingtime]

It won't go that far. They'll get sick of it before you do.

Just play your part and all will be over soon enough.

[fregit]

How long you been in this shit anyway?

I haven't seen you before. Not that I remember.

[abidingtime]

Been in the cages about three weeks.

I don't expect I'll be here much longer.

How about you, guardian angel?

[fregit]

Fuck, don't call me angel. It's all selfish.

Been in the cages about four months now. They're waiting till I die in them.

[abidingtime]

And you won't give them the pleasure, I take it. Good for you.

[fregit]

I kinda like being me.

I don't get to fucking be me anymore if I die.

[abidingtime]

I kinda like being me too.

Or, I did. I guess.

Now I don't particularly want to be alive.

[fregit]

You might get your wish at this rate.

They'll just make another you. One that's a little less of a problem to deal with.

[abidingtime]

That's the way it'll go then, I suppose.

Live, die, it makes no difference to anyone in the end.

Not to me, not to the next me. Not to you.